Feeling Worth

Lately, I've been struggling with the place God has put me. I have always dreamed of moving overseas with my family and learning a new language, cuisine, customs, and so on.  I had never fathomed living for a prolonged time in a suburb of a capital city, mostly house-bound, and being a house wife. It often feels like I'm just putting in time, or on the worst days, that my role is of little or no worth.

I have posted before about how I'm not very good at keeping house or even at times feel that I am good at mothering my kids. That's not really what I want to chat about today.

Today, I want to draw attention to something I've been learning.  This precious pearl has come to me through a variety of means, but most obviously, through a Bible study I just started this week.  The lesson deals with understanding God's call on your life and serving Him with faithful obedience for the sake of His glory.  It's not a simple lesson, nor is it a "one-time, thanks I've got it now," kind of thing. It's more like one of those polishing another layer of grime off of a jewel kind of lessons.

Anyway. I've always known God has a plan and a purpose for me and my life. I've always thought that ministering overseas was it. While it still might be, it also might not be. I really don't know at this point. What I do know, is about now.

Now, God has called me to be a house-bound, suburban dwelling house wife with three kids and a wonderful husband.
Now, God has called me to be aware of triggers and stressors for my son.
Now, God has called me to be and encourager of my stretched-thin husband.
Now, God has called me to be an example of a godly woman to my daughters.
Now God has called me to endless loads of laundry, piles of dishes, and daily diaper changes.
Now, God has called me to practice trust.
Now, God has called me to learn resilience.
Now, God has called me to understand brokenness and healing.

Now, God has called me to a number of things, each of them with purpose, meaning, chance to bring glory to Him. None of those things are insignificant when we look at them with the proper perspective and proper end goal - His glory!  That is weighty! That is immense! That is impossible - but I know, through Him, and only that way, I can do it!

The worthiness of my life has little to do with my role or task - It has everything to do with Him who called me to do it. He gives meaning and worth to even the most 'mundane' task.


How is He calling you?

XO,
J

Soli Deo Gloria