Resolving

As a new year dawned, I began to contemplate what I want this coming year to look like.  Last year, I dreamed and looked into what I thought would be my future. What I thought would be has not come to pass.

We had been slated to continue to travel to different churches, sharing what God had laid on our hearts. We had been hoping to travel to Texas to finish the last step in our long training process. We were supposed to pack up in North America and head over to a land of diverse culture, heat, and lost people. We were to have a baby (we did). We were to say many a goodbye.

So much. We thought we knew what was going to happen. Boy howdy, were we wrong!

With the overwhelming nature of the diagnosing process for my son, the move into the 'Hole', having a baby, and so on, we stepped back. We cleared our slate. We have started to choose to do the bare minimum outside of our home/family. We are learning how to be healthy in every sense of the word.

We have no idea what this next year will or should look like. I guess that's not true. We have a vague sense of some of the things that will happen. We have a few doctor appointments and meetings. We have school and work.  Those kinds of things - other than that, nada, zilch, nothing.

In the past, this lack of specific direction would have frightened me. I like having a plan - an itemized list with bullets even. Now, while I'm still cautious, I would not say I'm afraid.  I guess that I also have to confess that I do have a plan : to take each day as it comes.

The verse that has really hit home and carried me through the last little while is my Little Bird's life verse we've picked for her. Her name was inspired by it (She has both a bird and flower name in her name).  It is Matthew 6 25-34:

²⁵ “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? ²⁶ Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? ²⁷ Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?

²⁸ “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. ²⁹ Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. ³⁰ If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? ³¹ So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ ³² For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. ³³ But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. ³⁴ Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

So! Each day as it comes...and seeking first His Kingdom.  Sounds like a resolution to me. 

How this will flesh out, I'm not entirely sure. At this point, I have only one bullet to my itemized list ;)  - to read the Bible in its entirety at least 3 times.

We'll see how it goes, this resolving.

What have you resolved to do?

xo,

J  

soli deo gloria